Well as it turned out, I didn’t know anything but especially about how that most incredible experience would change my life forever. Being actually responsible for another human 24/7 times forever. My husband and I could not believe that we actually were allowed to take this tiny, helpless human home and then once there, although elated, it was scary.
So, it seemed all my ‘experience’ added up to nought when my baby came home. I wasn’t prepared and to tell you the truth I was mad, “why hadn’t anyone ever told me this? – I had three sisters for goodness sake! So many things were a surprise to me, I felt like we were the only ones who didn’t know what we were doing; surely everyone didn’t feel like this. Then later when I joined my mother’s group and I started talking to other parents I knew, it seemed that everyone, without exception felt the same that way my husband and I felt.